I wish all fathers, step-fathers, bonus-fathers, fur baby fathers and all the fathers no longer with us… a HAPPY FATHER’S DAY!
This Father’s Day is the second without my dad and it's not getting easier. I miss my dad so much.
It’s is beyond gut wrenching to lose a parent, and in this case it was my father. As a little girl, I put him on the biggest pedestal where he remained my entire life. And while all people make mistakes (myself included), my dad was my hero and that will never change.
It's interesting... I distinctly remember in 7th and 8th grade, sitting in class and randomly thinking about my dad dying. All I could do was cry. I know that’s not normal and I didn’t understand it at the time… But, I do now.
I was a daddy's girl. When my parents separated and my dad married my step-mom, I always remained his baby girl. I will forever cherish our unbreakable bond.
My dad confided in me at a young age and wanted me to be aware of all that was going on in his life. We were super close. I was his confidante and he was mine. And oh how I loved his stories, esp. from his days as an athlete. He would tell you he was a superstar and he really was.
When my little brother, Brian, called me at 3am on August 23, 2022… to tell me our dad died… I know it was difficult for him and at the young age of 34, he handled it with strength and poise. I can still remember his words and trying to process the devastating news. I immediately hopped in the car and headed to my dad’s house as it would be the only time I would be able to see him and I am so glad I did. The time spent with my dad I will forever cherish. Kissing him on his forehead (which I often did), holding his hand and telling him how much I love him meant everything to me and while he was no longer “here,” I know he heard and felt my messages of love.
My dad hated funerals. It was well known in our immediate family. He wanted to be put in his final resting place without any fuss. I know he was smiling when so many people showed up for his burial service just 2 days after the newspaper notice published... word sure traveled fast. That's who my dad was... everyone loved him... but nobody more than his daughter.
I miss you and love you dad.
xoxo,
Your Starr
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